Where art thou?

Genesis 3:9 (KJV)-And the LORD God called unto Adam, and said unto him, Where art thou?

Ever since that first time God called out to man it has been a reoccurring theme throughout  history. If you have ever read the Bible you know this well; time and time again God cries out to man, He calls them to come as we are. He calls for forgiveness, repentance. He is the Father with his arms always open. 

Yet we are not always so responsive. 

Genesis 3:8 (KJV)-And they heard the voice of the LORD God walking in the garden in the cool of the day: and Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the LORD God amongst the trees of the garden.

Do you ever just wonder why? Why do we hide? Is it so hard to be exposed? It seems that it's easier for us to crawl into ourselves and hide but then in the end we are deeper in exactly what we wanted to escape in the first place. You know the saying "Rip the band aide off" I guess it's kind of like that. If we could just let God see us and not try to hide anything then He would do the redeeming work that we so long for. His light may probe us and it might be painful to be so raw/honest/vulnerable to see what we really are, but is that not for the best? How relieving it will be to fall in His loving arms despite who we are. Just to let go, to let Him take you in... You wont be disappointed.

Heart of stone and haunting eyes

Sunday. Today was the same as any other Sunday I got to sleep in for a change and rest was welcomed especially after working 13 hours on Saturday... I even had the most pleasant dreams that left me feeling so good and ready for the rainy day. I actually Love the rain! Anyhow I got ready and left for church enjoying the torrential down pour and craziness of driving through flooded areas! it was exciting I was just about to turn into my church (on time mind you! yes its rare for me) but then I saw this lady completely drenched walking by herself. I knew I had to pick her up so I turned around and drove by her but when I saw her I was a bit appalled... her pants were pulled down to where half of her butt was out and I was thinking Oh no I'm not picking up some druggy prostitute in my car ewe  I was horrified. As I drove past I could hear Jesus saying "oh okay so you would pick her up if she was decent but sense she's not  she's not worth it to you? Really???"  I thought about how Jesus stood up for the prostitute that everyone else had condemned to be stoned. He told her, "Go and sin no more"  With those thoughts in my head I pulled over and waited for her to walk up. She came I rolled my window down and she was grateful for the ride. I asked where she was headed but I think she must of been on a lot of drugs because I couldn't understand a thing she said. Finally I got a "right" out of her and then a "left"  I asked her if she knew Jesus Christ and it sounded like she knew who he was but again she spoke a lot but I couldn't figure out what she was trying to say? The smell of urine and feces overpowered the air freshener in my car. I'm not really sure that she knew where she was going we ended up in the middle of businesses and next to the train tracks...  anyhow she asked me to turnaround then instead she just got out  she thanked me i think? that's what it was?  but then she left. I can't forget her eyes. I always notice peoples eyes, i'm an eye contact kind of person but these eyes were painful to look at and scary. they literally were haunting. Ice blue with a light ring around the pupil. As I drove back to church I kept rethinking about it all and the smell was still nauseating somehow I thought it would go away but apparently my wet passenger seat soaked it in (I hope its just water?).   Before I got in church I stopped and prayed, "God please help me to love like you do"    It hit me hard.....  to think  I was going to pick some one up and then NOT pick them up just because of my OWN COMFORT?!!?  wow. "Please soften my heart of stone" Amen